CHAPTER II
BOYHOOD DAYS
After the coming of freedom there were two points upon which practically all
the people on our place were agreed, and I find that this was generally true
throughout the South: that they must change their names, and that they must
leave the old plantation for at least a few days or weeks in order that they
might really feel sure that they were free.
In some way a feeling got among the coloured people that it was far from
proper for them to bear the surname of their former owners, and a great many
of them took other surnames. This was one of the first signs of freedom.
When they were slaves, a coloured person was simply called “John” or “Susan.”
There was seldom occasion for more than the use of the one name. If “John”
or “Susan” belonged to a white man by the name of “Hatcher,”
sometimes he was called “John Hatcher,” or as often “Hatcher’s John.”
But there was a feeling that “John Hatcher” or “Hatcher’s John”
was not the proper title by which to denote a freeman; and so in many cases
“John Hatcher” was changed to “John S. Lincoln” or “John S.
Sherman,” the initial “S” standing for no name, it being simply a part
of what the coloured man proudly called his “entitles.” As I have
stated, most of the coloured people left the old plantation for a short
while at least, so as to be sure, it seemed, that they could leave and try
their freedom on to see how it felt. After they had remained away for a
time, many of the older slaves, especially, returned to their old homes and
made some kind of contract with their former owners by which they remained
on the estate.
My mother’s husband, who was the stepfather of my brother John and myself,
did not belong to the same owners as did my mother. In fact, he seldom came
to our plantation. I remember seeing him there perhaps once a year, that
being about Christmas time. In some way, during the war, by running away and
following the Federal soldiers, it seems, he found his way into the new
state of West Virginia.
As soon as freedom was declared, he sent for my mother to come to the
Kanawha Valley, in West Virginia. At that time a journey from Virginia over
the mountains to West Virginia was rather a tedious and in some cases a
painful undertaking.
What little clothing and few household goods we had were placed in a cart,
but the children walked the greater portion of the distance, which was
several hundred miles.
I do not think any of us ever had been very far from the plantation, and the
taking of a long journey into another state was quite an event. The parting
from our former owners and the members of our own race on the plantation was
a serious occasion. From the time of our parting till their death we kept up
a correspondence with the older members of the family, and in later years we
have kept in touch with those who were the younger members. We were several
weeks making the trip, and most of the time we slept in the open air and did
our cooking over a log fire out of doors. One night I recall that we camped
near an abandoned
log cabin, and my mother decided to build a fire in that for cooking, and
afterward to make a “pallet” on the floor for our sleeping. Just as the
fire had gotten well started a large black snake fully a yard and a half
long dropped down the chimney and ran out on the floor. Of course we at once
abandoned that cabin. Finally we reached our destination- a little town
called Malden, which is about five miles from Charleston, the present
capital of the state.
At that time salt-mining was the great industry in that part of West
Virginia, and the little town of Malden was right in the midst of the
salt-furnaces. My stepfather had already secured a job at a salt-furnace,
and he had also secured a little cabin for us to live in. Our new house was
no better than the one we had left on the old plantation in Virginia. In
fact, in one respect it was worse. Notwithstanding the poor condition of our
plantation cabin, we were at all times sure of pure air. Our new home was in
the midst of a cluster of cabins crowded closely together, and as there were
no sanitary regulations, the filth about the cabins was often intolerable.
Some of our neighbours were coloured people, and some were the poorest and
most ignorant and degraded white people. It was a motley mixture. Drinking,
gambling, quarrels, fights, and shockingly immoral practices were frequent.
All who lived in the little town were in one way or another connected with
the salt business. Though I was a mere child, my stepfather put me and my
brother at work in one of the furnaces. Often I began work as early as four
o’clock in the morning.
The first thing I ever learned in the way of book knowledge was while
working in this salt-furnace. Each salt-packer had his barrels marked with a
certain number. The number allotted to my stepfather was “18.” At the
close of the day’s work the boss of the packers would come around and put
“18" on each of our barrels, and I soon learned to recognize the
figure wherever I saw it, and after a while got to the point where I could
make that figure, though I knew nothing about any other figures or letters.
From the time that I can remember having any thoughts about anything, I
recall that I had an intense longing to learn to read. I determined, when
quite a small child, that, if I accomplished nothing else in life, I would
in some way get enough education to enable me to read common books and
newspapers. Soon after we got settled in some manner in our new cabin in
West Virginia, I induced my mother to get hold of a book for me. How or
where she got it I do not know, but in some way she procured an old copy of
Webster’s “blue-back” spellingbook, which contained the alphabet,
followed by such meaningless words as “ab,” “ba,” “ca,” “da.”
I began at once to devour this book, and I think that it was the first one I
ever had in my hands. I had learned from somebody that the way to begin to
read was to learn the alphabet, so I tried in all the ways I could think of
to learn it- all of course without a teacher, for I could find no one to
teach me. At that time there was not a single member of my race anywhere
near us who could read, and I was too timid to approach any of the white
people. In some way, within a few weeks, I mastered the greater portion of
the alphabet. In all my ef-
forts to learn to read my mother shared fully my ambition, and sympathized
with me and aided me in every way that she could. Though she was totally
ignorant, so far as mere book knowledge was concerned, she had high
ambitions for her children, and a large fund of good, hard, common sense
which seemed to enable her to meet and master every situation. If I have
done anything in life worth attention, I feel sure that I inherited the
disposition from my mother.
In the midst of my struggles and longing for an education, a young coloured
boy who had learned to read in the state of Ohio came to Malden. As soon as
the coloured people found out that he could read, a newspaper was secured,
and at the close of nearly every day’s work this young man would be
surrounded by a group of men and women who were anxious to hear him read the
news contained in the papers. How I used to envy this man! He seemed to me
to be the one young man in all the world who ought to be satisfied with his
attainments.
About this time the question of having some kind of a school opened for the
coloured children in the village began to be discussed by members of the
race. As it would be the first school for Negro children that had ever been
opened in that part of Virginia, it was, of course, to be a great event, and
the discussion excited the widest interest. The most perplexing question was
where to find a teacher.
The young man from Ohio who had learned to read the papers was considered,
but his age was against him. In the midst of the discussion about a teacher,
another young coloured man from Ohio, who had been a soldier, in some way
found his way into town. It was soon learned that he possessed considerable
education, and he was engaged by the coloured people to teach their first
school. As yet no free schools had been started for coloured people in that
section, hence each family agreed to pay a certain amount per month, with
the understanding that the teacher was to “board ‘round”- that is,
spend a day with each family. This was not bad for the teacher, for each
family tried to provide the very best on the day the teacher was to be its
guest. I recall that I looked forward with an anxious appetite to the “teacher’s
day” at our little cabin.
This experience of a whole race beginning to go to school for the first
time, presents one of the most interesting studies that has ever occurred in
connection with the development of any race. Few people who were not right
in the midst of the scenes can form any exact idea of the intense desire
which the people of my race showed for an education. As I have stated, it
was a whole race trying to go to school. Few were too young, and none too
old, to make the attempt to learn.
As fast as any kind of teachers could be secured, not only were day-schools
filled, but night-schools as well. The great ambition of the older people
was to try to learn to read the Bible before they died. With this end in
view, men and women who were fifty or seventy-five years old would often be
found in the night-school. Sunday-schools were formed soon after freedom,
but the principal book studied in the Sunday-school was the spelling-book.
Day-school, night school, Sunday-school, were always crowded, and often many
had to be turned away for want of room.
The opening of the school in the Kanawha Valley, however, brought to me one
of the keenest disappointments that I ever experienced. I had been working
in a salt-furnace for several months, and my stepfather had discovered that
I had a financial value, and so, when the school opened, he decided that he
could not spare me from my work. This decision seemed to cloud my every
ambition. The disappointment was made all the more severe by reason of the
fact that my place of work was where I could see the happy children passing
to and from school, mornings and afternoons. Despite this disappointment,
however, I determined that I would learn something, anyway. I applied myself
with greater earnestness than ever to the mastering of what was in the “blue-back”
speller.
My mother sympathized with me in my disappointment, and sought to comfort me
in all the ways she could, and to help me find a way to learn. After a while
I succeeded in making arrangements with the teacher to give me some lessons
at night, after the day’s work was done. These night lessons were so
welcome that I think I learned more at night than the other children did
during the day. My own experiences in the night-school gave me faith in the
night-school idea, with which, in after years, I had to do both at Hampton
and Tuskegee. But my boyish heart was still set upon going to the
day-school, and I let no opportunity slip to push my case. Finally I won,
and was permitted to go to the school in the day for a few months, with the
understanding that I was to rise early in the morning and work in the
furnace till nine o’clock, and return immediately after school closed in
the afternoon for at least two more hours of work.
The schoolhouse was some distance from the furnace, and as I had to work
till nine o’clock, and the school opened at nine, I found myself in a
difficulty.
School would always be begun before I reached it, and sometimes my class had
recited. To get around this difficulty I yielded to a temptation for which
most people, I suppose, will condemn me; but since it is a fact, I might as
well state it. I have great faith in the power and influence of facts. It is
seldom that anything is permanently gained by holding back a fact. There was
a large clock in a little office in the furnace. This clock, of course, all
the hundred or more workmen depended upon to regulate their hours of
beginning and ending the day’s work. I got the idea that the way for me to
reach school on time was to move the clock hands from half-past eight up to
the nine o’clock mark. This I found myself doing morning after morning,
till the furnace “boss” discovered that something was wrong, and locked
the clock in a case. I did not mean to inconvenience any body. I simply
meant to reach that schoolhouse in time.
When, however, I found myself at the school for the first time, I also found
myself confronted with two other difficulties. In the first place, I found
that all of the other children wore hats or caps on their heads, and I had
neither hat nor cap.
In fact, I do not remember that up to the time of going to school I had ever
worn any kind of covering upon my head, nor do I recall that either I or
anybody else had even thought anything about the need of covering for my
head. But, of course, when I saw how all the other boys were dressed, I
began to feel quite uncomfortable. As usual, I put the case before my
mother, and she explained to me
that she had no money with which to buy a “store hat,” which was a
rather new institution at that time among the members of my race and was
considered quite the thing for young and old to own, but that she would find
a way to help me out of the difficulty. She accordingly got two pieces of
“homespun” (jeans) and sewed them together, and I was soon the proud
possessor of my first cap.
The lesson that my mother taught me in this has always remained with me, and
I have tried as best I could to teach it to others. I have always felt
proud, whenever I think of the incident, that my mother had strength of
character enough not to be led into the temptation of seeming to be that
which she was not of trying to impress my schoolmates and others with the
fact that she was able to buy me a “store hat” when she was not. I have
always felt proud that she refused to go into debt for that which she did
not have the money to pay for. Since that time I have owned many kinds of
caps and hats, but never one of which I have felt so proud as of the cap
made of the two pieces of cloth sewed together by my mother. I have noted
the fact, but without satisfaction, I need not add, that several of the boys
who began their careers with “store hats” and who were my schoolmates
and used to join in the sport that was made of me because I had only a “homespun”
cap, have ended their careers in the penitentiary, while others are not able
now to buy any kind of hat.
My second difficulty was with regard to my name, or rather a name. From the
time when I could remember anything, I had been called simply “Booker.”
Before going to school it had never occurred to me that it was needful or
appropriate to have an additional name. When I heard the school-roll called,
I noticed that all of the children had at least two names, and some of them
indulged in what seemed to me the extravagance of having three. I was in
deep perplexity, because I knew that the teacher would demand of me at least
two names, and I had only one. By the time the occasion came for the
enrolling of my name, an idea occurred to me which I thought would make me
equal to the situation; and so, when the teacher asked me what my full name
was, I calmly told him “Booker Washington,” as if I had been called by
that name all my life; and by that name I have since been known. Later in my
life I found that my mother had given me the name of “Booker Taliaferro”
soon after I was born, but in some way that part of my name seemed to
disappear, and for a long while was forgotten, but as soon as I found out
about it I revived it, and made my full name “Booker Taliaferro
Washington.” I think there are not many men in our country who have had
the privilege of naming themselves in the way that I have.
More than once I have tried to picture myself in the position of a boy or
man with an honoured and distinguished ancestry which I could trace back
through a period of hundreds of years, and who had not only inherited a
name, but fortune and a proud family homestead; and yet I have sometimes had
the feeling that if I had inherited these, and had been a member of a more
popular race, I should have been inclined to yield to the temptation of
depending upon my ancestry and my colour to do that for me which I should do
for myself. Years ago I resolved that because I had no ancestry myself I
would leave a record of which my children would be proud, and which might
encourage them to still higher effort.
The world should not pass judgement upon the Negro, and especially the Negro
youth, too quickly or too harshly. The Negro boy has obstacles,
discouragements, and temptations to battle with that are little known to
those not situated as he is. When a white boy undertakes a task, it is taken
for granted that he will succeed. On the other hand, people are usually
surprised if the Negro boy does not fail. In a word, the Negro youth starts
out with the presumption against him.
The influence of ancestry, however, is important in helping forward any
individual or race, if too much reliance is not placed upon it. Those who
constantly direct attention to the Negro youth’s moral weaknesses, and
compare his advancement with that of white youths, do not consider the
influence of the memories which cling about the old family homesteads. I
have no idea, as I have stated elsewhere, who my grandmother was. I have, or
have had, uncles and aunts and cousins, but I have no knowledge as to where
most of them are. My case will illustrate that of hundreds of thousands of
black people in every part of our country. The very fact that the white boy
is conscious that, if he fails in life, he will disgrace the whole family
record, extending back through many generations, is of tremendous value in
helping him to resist temptations. The fact that the individual has behind
and surrounding him proud family history and connection serves as a stimulus
to help him to overcome obstacles when striving for success.
The time that I was permitted to attend school during the day was short, and
my attendance was irregular. It was not long before I had to stop attending
dayschool altogether, and devote all of my time again to work. I resorted to
the nightschool again. In fact, the greater part of the education I secured
in my boyhood was gathered through the night-school after my day’s work
was done. I had difficulty often in securing a satisfactory teacher.
Sometimes, after I had secured some one to teach me at night, I would find,
much to my disappointment, that the teacher knew but little more than I did.
Often I would have to walk several miles at night in order to recite my
night-school lessons. There was never a time in my youth, no matter how dark
and discouraging the days might be, when one resolve did not continually
remain with me, and that was a determination to secure an education at any
cost.
Soon after we moved to West Virginia, my mother adopted into our family,
notwithstanding our poverty, an orphan boy, to whom afterward we gave the
name of James B. Washington. He has ever since remained a member of the
family.
After I had worked in the salt-furnace for some time, work was secured for
me in a coal-mine which was operated mainly for the purpose of securing fuel
for the salt-furnace. Work in the coal-mine I always dreaded. One reason for
this was that any one who worked in a coal-mine was always unclean, at least
while at work, and it was a very hard job to get one’s skin clean after
the day’s work was over. Then it was fully a mile from the opening of the
coal-mine to the face of the
coal, and all, of course, was in the blackest darkness. I do not believe
that one ever experiences anywhere else such darkness as he does in a
coal-mine. The mine was divided into a large number of different “rooms”
or departments, and, as I never was able to learn the location of all these
“rooms,” I many times found myself lost in the mine. To add to the
horror of being lost, sometimes my light would go out, and then, if I did
not happen to have a match, I would wander about in the darkness until by
chance I found some one to give me a light. The work was not only hard, but
it was dangerous. There was always the danger of being blown to pieces by a
premature explosion of powder, or of being crushed by falling slate.
Accidents from one or the other of these causes were frequently occurring,
and this kept me in constant fear. Many children of the tenderest years were
compelled then, as is now true I fear, in most coal-mining districts, to
spend a large part of their lives in these coal-mines, with little
opportunity to get an education; and, what is worse, I have often noted
that, as a rule, young boys who begin life in a coal-mine are often
physically and mentally dwarfed. They soon lose ambition to do anything else
than to continue as a coal-miner.
In those days, and later as a young man, I used to try to picture in my
imagination the feelings and ambitions of a white boy with absolutely no
limit placed upon his aspirations and activities. I used to envy the white
boy who had no obstacles placed in the way of his becoming a Congressman,
Governor, Bishop, or President by reason of the accident of his birth or
race. I used to picture the way
that I would act under such circumstances; how I would begin at the bottom
and keep rising until I reached the highest round of success.
In later years, I confess that I do not envy the white boy as I once did. I
have learned that success is to be measured not so much by the position that
one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome while
trying to succeed. Looked at from this standpoint, I almost reach the
conclusion that often the Negro boy’s birth and connection with an
unpopular race is an advantage, so far as real life is concerned. With few
exceptions, the Negro youth must work harder and must perform his task even
better than a white youth in order to secure recognition. But out of the
hard and unusual struggle through which he is compelled to pass, he gets a
strength, a confidence, that one misses whose pathway is comparatively
smooth by reason of birth and race.
From any point of view, I had rather be what I am, a member of the Negro
race, than be able to claim membership with the most favoured of any other
race.
I have always been made sad when I have heard members of any race claiming
rights and privileges, or certain badges of distinction, on the ground
simply that they were members of this or that race, regardless of their own
individual worth or attainments. I have been made to feel sad for such
persons because I am conscious of the fact that mere connection with what is
known as a superior race will not permanently carry an individual forward
unless he has individual worth, and mere connection with what is regarded as
an inferior race will not finally hold an individual back if he possesses
intrinsic, individual merit. Every persecuted individual and race should get
much consolation out of the great human law, which is universal and eternal,
that merit, no matter under what skin found, is, in the long run, recognized
and rewarded. This I have said here, not to call attention to myself as an
individual, but to the race to which I am proud to belong.